Controversial Art Piece by me

I've never sat down...and really painted for so long. (Since my last painting a year ago). But the emotions and feelings going through me on the night of completing and starting this art piece have myself guessing what I want in life.

I want a sense of freedom and balance, enjoyment in the work I do.
In one sitting (5-6 hrs) I painted and painted to complete this work of art.

And the end result...well it's really definitely up to the viewer to see what is in the painting. Lately I've been on an emotional rollercoaster and always question all aspects of my present and what will become of my future.

Sometimes I do dwell in the past and wander what could be...
But I am always determined to look forward and see a brighter and fulfilling path ahead of me. I enjoy simplistic things in life so far...and try not to worry or dwell in things that could have been, but make things more better of what is in the present and be ready for the future.

I really thank the people who had left me behind...
for those who I loved and lost and...
for the new ones who have entered my life and enriched it deeply.

I can only learn to love myself more because of that. :)